I'm tired. And I'm fat.
I probably can't do much about the first one. But I'm sure enough gonna do something about the second thing.
I've fought the battle of the bulge too long and I've failed countless times.
When I got on the scale a month ago on a whim and looked down at my feet, my eyes got really big.
First, the scale blinks and says, "Hi!" Like that's gonna make me feel any better about the news it's gonna give me.
Then the number - 288.
Do the math - that's 12 pounds away from 300.
Girlfriend, I ain't havin' no parts of that.
I've listened to the lies too long: "Girl, you're just big-boned. You're okay."
Well, the devil is a lie. It's not okay.
It's not okay that my knees ache.
It's not okay that I can't blame the dryer for shrinking my clothes.
It was time to get ready to fight this battle.
I've tried diet after diet, pill after pill, and even considered gastric bypass surgery. I'd lose a few pounds, get all happy and then put them back on. And more.
You see, it wasn't until I had a come-to-Jesus talk with my doctor (well, let's correct that - she had it with me). She said that I had to get my mind right before I could even think about losing weight.
I love that lady.
She didn't prescribe me a magic pill that promised to melt the weight away, she refused to even discuss surgery. She looked deep into what was really keeping me from just doing it. And that's my mindset.
I didn't think I could do it. I didn't want to fail at something else in my life. I wasn't worthy of doing anything even remotely nice for myself.
My doctor referred me to a therapist and I've been able to deal with some roadblocks, not only things keeping me from losing weight but other things I've wanted to tackle.
It's amazing what can happen when your mind is right.
Now, don't get it twisted. I'm still working to get life right. But I'm in a really good place to start (and win!) this weight loss journey. And just like many things in life, the first step is admitting there is a problem.
Side note: I belong to a really supportive Facebook group, recommended by my therapist. If you need non-judgemental people in your life while you lose weight, this is definitely the group.
So, my hope is that documenting my journey will help someone. And let's be honest - I'm selfish and it will help me, too.
So, here we go - I've shared my starting weight of 288. I'm going to weigh in weekly and share what went right and where I messed up. I'll also share my meal prep menu for the week. Hopefully, a recipe will jump out at you and you'll want to get in the kitchen and give it a whirl.
So, let's get started:
Starting weight - July 30 - 288 pounds
Current weight: 279.2 pounds
Goal: 200 pounds
What worked this week?
The big thing I experimented with was fasting. What does that look like? I used to eat breakfast shortly after I woke up (4:30am), eat a snack between 9am and 10am, lunch at noon, another snack between 2pm and 3pm and then dinner. I've changed things up where I give myself an 8-hour window to eat. And I only eat if I'm absolutely starving. Now, I eat breakfast between 8am-9am, lunch might happen around 1pm or 2pm and dinner no later than 5pm. That's it. Nothing to eat after 5pm which means about 15 hours of no food. At first I thought it would be extremely painful but it's going pretty well.
I did get my water in - at least 100 ounces per day. It's getting easier to drink my water.
I knew the end of the week would include breakfast with a friend so I cut back on snacks throughout the week so I was able to enjoy breakfast guilt-free. It really comes down to planning.
What didn't work this week?
I didn't get my exercise in the way I would have liked. I set a goal of 4 days per week but I only got in two. But I did do a deep clean of my house so I kept active somewhat.
Here's my meal plan for this week (beginning 9/3):
B - cereal
L - Chicken salad, grapes, yogurt
D - Macaroni and cheese, salad
B - toast, yogurt
L - Burrito bowl, yogurt
D - Macaroni and cheese, salad
B - cereal
L - Chicken salad, cookie
D - Spaghetti with meat sauce, salad, yogurt
B - cereal, banana
L - Burrito bowl, grapes
D - Grilled chicken breast, salad
B - 2 Pancakes
L - Burrito bowl, banana
D - Spaghetti and meat sauce, salad
B - Toast and yogurt
L - Chicken salad
D - Burger and a salad
The burrito bowl is one of my favorite go-to dishes. I prepare it and then portion it out into meal prep containers. Makes it easy to grab-and-go a quick lunch or dinner. And my boys love it, too!